Monday, September 26, 2016

Cold Water - Major feat. Justin Bieber




[Justin Bieber:]
Everybody gets high sometimes, you know
What else can we do when we’re feeling low?
So take a deep breath and let it go
You shouldn’t be drowning on your own
And if you feel you’re sinking,
I will jump right over into cold, cold water for you
And although time may take us into different places
I will still be patient with you
And I hope you know
I won’t let go
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
I won’t let go
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
Cause we all get lost sometimes, you know?
It’s how we learn and how we grow
And I wanna lay with you ’til I’m old
You shouldn’t be fighting on your own
And if you feel you’re sinking,
I will jump right over into cold, cold water for you
And although time may take us into different places
I will still be patient with you
And I hope you know
I won’t let go (I won’t let go, no, no, no, no, no, no)
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
I won’t let go
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
[MØ:]
Come on, come on
Save me from my rocking boat
I just want to stay afloat
I’m all alone
And I hope, I hope
Someone’s gonna take me home
Somewhere I can rest my soul
I need to know
[Justin Bieber & MØ:]
You won’t let go (I won’t let go, no, no, no, no, no, no)
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
You won’t let go
I’ll be your lifeline tonight
[Justin Bieber:]
I won’t let go
I won’t let go

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Moving Past Guilt


About a week ago, I received a document from a psychologist. The title of the document is "How to Overcome Feelings of Guilt."

Serious stuff. Of course I'm not going to tell you why I talked to a psychologist. It's confidential.

Well, I guess, in general, we all have guilt. But the one that I'm feeling now is considered unhealthy guilt. Of course if you are guilty as charged, it doesn't really matter. But if that guilt comes from something that is out of your control, then it should be overcome.
 
The article said that we should first identify the source of this guilt. From there, we can determine if it's a normal-natural guilt or unproductive guilt. After identifying, write about those feelings in a journal. This should not be difficult for me since I am used to write almost everything: daily life, work-related, unimportant things. This activity will be able to help to understand the feeling and afterwards will be able to deal it. One thing for sure, we can describe what happened in order to understand the extent of the event that made you feel guilty and understand why it made you feel guilty.

After doing those things, we then should move past guilty feeling. Because wallowing in the past doesn't do good things to our lives, it will just make us more depressed. First thing to do when we are moving past guilt is by forgiving ourselves for what had happened. Especially if the event that happened was out of our hands and beyond our control. Just because it happened and we could not do anything about it, doesn't make us a bad person. Second thing to do is to change guilt into gratitude. This needs constant reassurance not only from ourselves but also from our inner circle. Guilt can be destructive. That is why it needs to be managed and handled. Third thing is to do good deeds. Of course whatever good deeds that we do will not change what happened but it will help us move forward to a more positive life.

After doing all those things, if you still consistently have guilty feeling, then it's time to seek professional help, especially when this guilt interfere with your daily life and work.

This post is so not me, but I think I should write down things that are currently happening in my life. This thing is one of them.

Saturday, September 3, 2016

Ruth B - Lost Boy

picture was taken from www.yourlisten.com



[Intro]
There was a time when I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too

[Verse 1]
Then one night, as I closed my eyes,
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan. That's what they call me.
I promise that you'll never be lonely."
And ever since that day...

[Chorus]
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."

[2x]
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free

[Verse 2]
He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...

[Chorus]
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."

[2x]
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free

[2x]
Peter Pan, Tinker Bell, Wendy Darling,
Even Captain Hook.
You are my perfect story book
Neverland, I love you so,
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost boy at last

And for always I will say...

[Chorus]
I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."

[2x]
Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free
 

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Life.....



Life is not perfect.

Whatever you're trying to do to fix it or make it perfect, it's just not going to happen.

Because life is not perfect.


And so, after 9 years and 385 posts, we're here now.
Hopefully there will be more to come.


Friday, August 12, 2016

[Yemen] Jumuah Mubarakah! :)

 
the mosque is just over there!


Jumuah mubarakah is what they say here (at least between men) after offering friday prayer. It's basically saying have a bless friday to the people they meet or even they talk to on the phone.
 
Being able to offer friday prayer in the mission, for me, is a bless. On my prevous mission in South Sudan, the project was located in the middle of nowhere. I heard adzan few times only, so vague that up to now I still think that I was probably hallucinating because I didn't hear adzan for so long.
 
And now, here in Yemen, even though I still have to wear my MSF vest when I'm on the street--although the mosque is 20 meters away from the house--I feel so much grateful.
 
Like most buildings in Yemen, the mosque is a modest square-one-floor building with minaret on one of the corner. On July, the weather was so hot that I sweat just by sitting there listening to the khatib yang sedang berkhutbah. Of course there were few wall and ceiling fans but they don't really make any difference.
 
Men and boys came with their sunday friday best complete with their jambia (and sometimes with guns well)

One thing that amazed me is that how quiet it was. No voices of people mumbling or chatting, no sounds of children running around and screaming. People, old and young, came to the mosque to offer prayer. And that's what they did. I'm amazed how people listen to the sermon seriously, how school-age children came in 2 or 3, few without adults, offer sunnah prayer and then sit quietly listening to the sermon.

jumuah mubarakah from Abs! :) 

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Talking about Wrong Thing in the Wrong Hand

Disclaimer: Despite the fact that the following story was based on actual event, I will deny any allegation or presumption on when or where it actually took place.


I am writing this because it is too horrible to be forgotten. I am writing this because a man's life, whoever it is, is precious. I am writing this because the mind is a dense jungle where everything could be lost upon entering.


One afternoon we received a young boy with a GSW to the head. When I examined the head, brain matter coming out of the back of the head through a small hole.

I am mad. So mad when I found out that it was accidental. The boy was playing with his friend who happened to carry a Kalashnikov casually as if it was something a teenage boy would bring when hanging out with his friends, when that friend accidentally pulled the trigger and shot him at the back of his head.

Didn't see any exit wound, so the bullet is most likely still lodged inside the cranium.

I am furious to be exact. I just can't believe that some people consider a gun, a rifle is a toy, something to play with. Especially in this place where was is raging and gun is easily found. I thought they are supposed to be more careful and wiser with this thing, since they're seen what a weapon can do, how war changes their lives and their country and how a gun in the wrong hand can be vvery dangerous.


Read other entry about GSW in here.


GSW = Gun Shot Wound

Friday, July 29, 2016

[Yemen] The Much Needed Snake Antivenom

One day, we received  Adel, a 12 year old boy, who was bitten by a snake few hours earlier. He came in a state of severe envenomation. He's barely conscious. Blood was coming out of his mouth and his ear. His eyelids were dropped. His right foot was swollen up to his ankle.

He had all the signs of severe envenomation. We thought he was going to die.

He didn't.

In this desert country where venomous snake is not hard to find, number of snake bite cases is quite constant. Each week we receive 10-15 cases. This means that in one year we receive more than 500 cases.

People live in houses where they keep the doors and windows open almost all the time due to the heat. This makes them prone to the bite of this slithering creature. The more fortunate ones have their houses tightly closed to keep the air-conditioned room cool. But it doesn't mean they are snake-bite free. The threat is still there: when they go to the market, when children go to school, when people are outside of their houses, snakes can still bite.

So, unlike Malaria or Dengue that we can prevent by trying to prevent mosquito bite, it's not quite the same with snake.

When snake bite is not easily preventable, what we can do in managing case of snake bite is by giving anti venom as soon as possible to the patient. Since different place has different types of snakes, it is better to use locally-produced antivenom, the one that is specifically made against the snakes that are found in that area. But the availability of antivenom is a challenge itself. In the project we have been using antivenom that is produced by a company in Saudi Arabia. Since we receive it from Sanaa, it takes time from when we order to the time the antivenom arrives in our hospital. The problem is some patients may need more antivenom compare to other patients and use almost all of the supply. When this thing happens, we have to purchase it locally which quality is questionable. The good thing is, the one that we buy here in Abs seems to work quite well even though it was manufactured in India.



One thing for sure, as MSF is the only one providing free-of-charge the expensive snake antivenom, people from different districts, even the ones from far places like near the border to Saudi Arabia, come to our hospital to seek antivenom that is needed so much.

Even so, the majority of snake bite patients are still unable to access the treatment that can save their lives. So the path to provide people living with high risk of snake bite is still far from reach.